How I went from an It Band injury to an L4L5 Back Fusion

Yep, you read that correctly, I had back surgery 7.5 weeks ago; and it was all because I sent to see my PT for an IT Band issue. 

In my last couple of blogs you know that I was going to a PT for an IT Band issue, and things were going fine.  Craig was giving me more and more exercises to correct the strength in my legs to get them to track correctly.  My left leg went laterally at the knee, and my right leg went medially at the knee, both causing IT Band pain.  He was also working on changing the way my posture was when I was running.  The lower back takes a lot of pounding when you run, so the idea is to strengthen it by pushing it out, and getting rid of the “sway” in your lower back.  I was to use my core to do that, and round my shoulders while running to help that happen.  I was given several core exercises from the day I walked into his office, some of them incorporated a balloon.  This would also relieve the tension on my IT Bands at the pelvis – everything is connected.

Shortly after I started PT, I started getting a tingling feeling in my feet, and sometimes it went up the back of my calves.  I thought it was a temporary issue, and I didn’t think much about it; but it started to happen more and more, and started to go up my legs even more.  When I sat down, it went away.  I told Craig about it, and he wasn’t too concern because it was mild, and it was relieved when I sat down.  So, he added in more exercises to help this.  But, it still got worse.  Some days I was fine, other days I wasn’t.  So, in addition of the worry of my IT Bands giving me problems while I was running, I started to worry about the tingling, which moved on into numbness.  Then I started worrying it would happen when I was running, which it did, and then had to take time out on runs to sit down and let it go away.  It was very stressful.  It occurred more when I was walking them running, this was because you typically lean forward when you run, so it provided relieve in that position. I continued to go see Craig every week, my It Band issue was doing much better, but the tinging, numbness, and piriformis issue got worse.  And I got more and more scared to run, but I kept running; but I was running scared.  Craig suggested I take two weeks off of running, and during that time I started to feel different.  What I mean by different, is I felt worse.

Well, these two weeks were hard, it became harder and harder, more and more painful to run.  My low back and across the hips became very painful, and I became very frustrated and cried a lot.  I was struggling, a lot.  I continued to run races we had signed up for, but I was running scared.  The last ERS race in Louisville I ended up getting an early start and did slow running and walking to finish it.  I wanted to finish out the series.  Yes, it was painful, but I did it.  It continued to get worse.  When I went to see Craig again, he suggested it was time to go see a Sports Medicine doctor.  I made an appointment.

At this same time, I was told that my mother was getting worse, more work for the Staff at Collinwood, couldn’t transfer, was not toileting herself, and more and more combative.  I was told I had to get her into the Hospice program or move her to a full-care facility.  What a mess.  I was worried and stressed about that, I didn’t want to move her, and my legs were more and more painful.  The mornings were the worse, and I finally was just walking, and then stopping to sit, then walking.  Running was out of the question, I had also stopped working out at the gym by this time.  I just couldn’t do it anymore, even on my good days.

I went to see the Sports medicine doctor in an afternoon that I had been dealing with issues with Mom.  When I got there, my BP was so high, he wouldn’t see me and sent me to Urgent Care.  I normally have very normal blood pressure.  I went to urgent care, they started me on medication to lower my BP.  I kept telling everyone that it was stress (Mom and my numbness issue), and the pain.  At Urgent Care they took Lumbar Radiographs.  The radiographs showed a congenital narrowing of the spine on L4L5.  I was hoping they would give me something for my anxiety, but they did not, but the next day I went to see another doctor, because I was urged to by the Hospice people.  I was stressed and I had high anxiety.  In the meantime, because of what the radiographs showed, an MRI was scheduled.  My Mom passed away, and two days after that I had an MRI.  The same day as my MRI, the Sports Medicine doctor called me and wanted to see me right away.  Friday afternoon, when he was usually off.  Dr. Abrahamson went over my MRI.  I had a severe stenosis of the spine at L4L5 and my disc was damaged; most of this was congenital.   There was too much movement front to back in that joint as well, so I was referred to a neurosurgeon, who I saw the next week.

The neurosurgeon went over my MRI with me and gave me three options 1) injections, 2) cut ligaments in my back, and 3) L4L5 back surgery.  He also wanted more radiographs.  I had the radiographs that day, and they showed that my back was not stable, with 7mm movement front to back.  Surgery was the only option.  Surgery was then scheduled for December 30^th at 8am.

On surgery day I had to be at the hospital at 6:30am (on a Saturday) for pre-op, and I was taken into surgery about 8:15am.  I was really nervous, but I knew I wanted to be better.  When I woke up, I knew I was “better”, but I was in pain from surgery.  I spent 2 nights in the hospital getting used to everything I needed to do, had two PT sessions, and practiced walking without a walker.  My restrictions are No Lifting, No bending, and No twisting.  Basically, I am not allowed to do anything.  I can’t do any housework, barnwork, or anything.  I also cannot take a shower alone, flush the toilet, dress, get in and out of bed – or anything without help.  It was then I knew that is was going to be a really long recovery, both mentally and physically.

Now that it is 7.5 weeks since I had had surgery, I can tell you it hasn’t been easy.  I didn’t need much pain medications after about 10 days, and at that point only took them at night (Tramadol and Flexril).  Everything was hard to do, it still is, only it’s more frustrating than ever.  Tying shoes, putting on pants, getting in and out of bed, etc. The worst has been sleeping.  I have some nerve issues at night in my right quad, which feel like “pins and needles”, goes numb, and I getting stabbing pains that keep me awake or wake me up at night.  Tonight I am trying a bed wedge to keep my upper body elevated.  Just trying things that other have had success with after this surgery.

I started walking after the 3^rd week post surgery, and today was my 32^nd walk on the Dreadmill since surgery.  I am up to 3 miles at this point.  I don’t like the dreadmill, but I am so thankful I have it.  I need an outlet, and I can’t go outside when the weather is bed or there is ice or snow.  I am a fall hazard.  I cannot fall.  I have been on three walks on the cement bike paths in town while Tom goes running.  Last week had some really nice weather, and it was great to get outside.  The surgeon and the PA said I could walk as much as I want, and “I would know when I have done too much”.  This has happened a few times, mostly the days that I had company.  There is one or two days a week that I am so down and hate how I am and how I feel.  Today is one of those days, I am having extra pain, and the last two days I just feel like crying. 

The great news is that I have none of my previous symptoms.  I can walk without pain, the buzzing numbness and pain is gone.  I am so grateful and thankful.  It just been frustrating, and I hate feeling this way.  I just have to keep moving forward.  I am stuck at home, but get out for movies, CSU Women’s Basketball games, and shopping once a week.  Today was my first haircut since before surgery.  I have to wait until March 26^th for my 3 month Post-Op check up with radiographs.  At that time I will find out if there is enough healing for me to start running again.  It is frustrating not knowing how the healing is going, especially on the bad days, like today.  It’s frustrating not getting good sleep, but it is common with the surgery. It’s frustrating gaining weight and feeling fat. I read, do puzzles, color, and journal.  I have a new journal: Dragon Tree Dreambook and planner.  Ebeth suggested I get it.  It has been really good for me. I am also doing my own little Bible Study and looking up all the times “donkey” is mentioned in the Bible.  So, I walk every day, extending my distance each day.  I journal, color, read and build puzzles – and watch the Olympics.  I have to learn how to be STILL, be strong, don’t quit.  It’s going to be a long process.

Morning of surgery, driving to MCR

The afternoon after surgery

My MRI

My incision with staples 

Post-surgery radiographs

Post-surgery radiographs

Incision after staples removed - 2 weeks after SX

My Skirt Sports #neverwear

As an Ambassador Skirt Sports, a women's athletic wear company based out of Boulder Colorado; they have asked us to post about one of their products I thought I would never wear. One of my #neverwear Skirt Sports product  was the Lioness Skirt.  I am 56 years old, I didn't think I would like the ruffles and the shirt length. However, after wearing it the first time, I discovered how cute it was, not really that short, and I loved the ruffles. Watch my #neverwear video and see what you think! You can get this Lioness Skirt Sport Skirt for 15% off with my personal Ambassador Discount Code:  439john
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Second year as a skirt sports Ambassador!

I am so excited and honored to be a part of the SKIRT SPORTS AMBASSADOR TEAM for a second year as a PRO AMBASSADOR. This company and what it stands for means so much to me. The first time I set foot in the store Noelle Wilson recognized me as one of the new Ambassadors; and  she brought Nicole DeBoom, creator of the company out to meet me as well. I instantly knew that I belonged here. I ran the Skirt Sports 13er last year; I was brought to tears when most every runner stayed until the last girl came across the finish line. No other group does this. And the Skirt Sports products? Love them! You can try them for 15% off with my personal discount code: 439john
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Being Injured Can Be a Pain #2

Being injured can be a pain, both physically and mentally.  I am having a hard time with it.  Running is one of the only things that keeps me dealing with other things in my life, and when I cannot run, those other things become tougher.  I suppose I shouldn't be so open on this blog, but no one really reads it anyway.  I have been really down, and it has been difficult for me.  I feel like when I have tried to talk to people about it, they don't understand.  Sometimes I don't understand.

I had my second PT appointment on Monday (two days ago).  Craig said I was looking better, and then he went over all of the exercises that he gave me last Thursday.  He wanted to make sure I was doing them correctly, which was good, as I needed to change some small things.  He also added another exercise for me to do.  I assumed he would build on what he started.  Then we want to watch me run outside, without my brace (which I didn't have on because it was too sweaty from the gym).  He said that I was a good runner (ha), and he told me he wanted to change some things.  He wants me to tuck my pelvis under when I run (like a pelvic tilt), and also shorten my stride (like Wendy said today "ha, now you will go no where").  So, I practiced doing that, and then we talked about the upcoming race (Chase the Moon) this weekend.  We will decided Thursday if I should run it.  I like Craig, and I like where he is going with the PT.  I just know it is going to take a long time to correct this, I am sure I have been this way for a long time.  He thought it contributed to my MCL injury as well.  So, I will have an update tomorrow.

4-Legged Fourth of July Run

Yesterday Tom, Riley, Cabby and I ran the 4 Legged Fourth of July Run in Windsor.  It was Cabby's first race and one of her only adventures.  We haven't taken her for runs because of her age, and waiting until she is a year old before we start her running with us.  But, this was only a 5k, so we figured she and Tom could walk most of it.

The dogs were pretty excited when we arrived, so it was kind of stressful, but this was really good for Cabby.  When the race started, Riley wanted to take off, so we ran; and so did Cabby and Tom.  Cabby wanted to run and run, and when Tom tried to get her to walk, she wanted to run.  So, Tom would pick her up and run with carrying her for a bit.  She liked being carried, but didn't like walking. The run was just around the Windsor Lake, and we THOUGHT it was a 5k, but it wasn't, it was only 2.3 miles.  Tom and I were disappointed with the mileage for us, but it was perfect for Cabby, plus it got really hot quickly.

Riley and I won second in my age group; so I got a medal, and Riley got to pick a toy off the table.  Of course he chose a ball.  It was fun, and the dogs had a good time.  Not sure if we will do this run again, but it was a fun thing to do with the dogs on the Fourth of July.

The Dizzy Goat 12 Hour Trail Run

It's been 10 days since I ran the Dizzy Goat 12 Hour Trail Run in Omaha, Nebraska.  Before this, I really couldn't write before this, as I have been feeling really down about what happened at this event. Mostly, my performance.  I guess my goals were too high for what my body could do, or maybe not.  I felt totally ready, totally trained, and I felt good.  I was hoping to run more then 26.2 miles, or just surpass my longest run, which has been 21.5 miles to this point, but it was not meant to be.  In the end, we decided that since I hadn't been able to run trails as much as I would have liked to prepare, and the trail was tough because of the weather they had had there; that it was just too hard on my MCL injury and body.  But, in the long run (ha ha), I think maybe I have learned something.  So, let me tell you about it. . . .

We left on our trip Friday morning at 7am, picking up my friend Linda.  She was walking the six hour run, and we were running the 12 hour run.  The trip out there was fun.  We made several stops along the way, and even stopped at the Archway in Nebraska for lunch, and to look inside.  Maybe someday we will stop for a longer time there.  It looked cool, but we had to check in and get our runners packets by 6pm in Omaha. When we got to Omaha, we went straight to Canfields to pick up our packet's, and Stacy and Beth were there at the same time!  How amazing was that?  I bought to Tailwind with a 20% off coupon they gave us, and we shopped around the store.

We then checked into mine and Tom's hotel.  Our hotel was in Downtown Omaha since there was a College Baseball World Series there, and there were no rooms in the area at all.  We at Dinner in our room, then headed out to Schramm State Park to set up the Canopy for the next morning.  After that we got Linda settled into her hotel (Motel 8 that we stayed at last year), and then we headed back to our hotel to get some sleep.  When we got back to our hotel there were several cops there escorting some women out that was high or something.  Great.  The hotel (Hotel 402) is old, remodeled, and in a kind of scary area.  I will have to say that I slept great there for some reason.

The next morning started our great.  I was ready to go, and so excited.  We picked Linda up at her hotel (since she didn't start until 1pm), that way she could have the truck while we were running.  It was so great to see everyone!!!  Ginger was there, and Scott (Race Director - we saw him the night before).  The weather was amazing!!!  It was so cool, and it didn't get over 74 degrees, and there was hardly a drop of humidity. Perfect weather, all day.  7am finally arrived, and off we went.  It was wonderfully cool, and so great to be back on this trail.  The first 4 loops went great.  I felt good, didn't feel tired or hot.  Then on the 4th loop at the Motivation Station I got some pain in my left IT area on my knee.  WHAT?!  I don't get left IT pain.  So, I tried my best to ignore it, but it got worse.  I was so upset, this was so unexpected.  And it got worse, and worse.  When we got back to the main area, I told Tom he needed to go on his own, and I would just start walking loops and run when I could.  I know he felt bad, but I wanted him to succeed, and there was no need for him not to take a shot at his personal goals.  This was hard for both of us.  I finally convinced him to leave me, and then I started walking the 6th loop.  I actually ran some of the first part of the loop, and I felt hopeful that it would just go away.  Ha.  Not to be.  I was putting ice on it at the Motivation Station, and then about half way back from there I saw Tom, and sadly told him I thought I would have to time out.  I wanted to cry, but I didn't want to ruin his run.  It is also hard to cry at the Dizzy Goat because there is always someone coming toward you in the opposite direction.

At the end of the clockwise loop and beginning of the counter clockwise loop there is the What The Hill hill, it was going down that hill that I realized that I had to time out, the pain when down the front of my shin, and I knew it was my last loop.  I couldn't injury myself more.  I timed out, finishing 6 loops, officially 19.5 miles.  They gave me my medal.  I told Scott and the new RD.  They were both so sorry, and the new RD came over to the canopy to talk with me and offer me some FireBall.  This is why we go back, "they" are the best.  They really are.

I got to see Linda and Stacy start their 6 hour run.  I spent the afternoon sipping shots of FireBall and watching Tom, Linda, and Stacy run/walk their loops and try to give them aide when they needed it.  I tried to nap and cry, but wasn't successful with that either.  I went over and got a massage from the group that was there at Cunningham Lake last year.  She is amazing.  I think that helped a lot.  I also go to me Deb Bahr for the first time.  Even though I was extremely sad and disappointed I got to enjoy the success of others and hang out with friends.  Tom ran 44.25 miles!  Linda walked 16.25 miles, and Stacy did 10.5 miles.  Beth was an awesome volunteer.

The Dizzy Goat was over, and I felt that I had failed.  Or at least that is how I felt.  It was so hard not to start crying, and I really, really tried hard not to show how sad and disappointed I was.  We went out to dinner at a place at the Outlet Mall and then dropped Linda off at her hotel and we went back Downtown to ours.  We took showers and went to bed.  I tired not to cry.  I felt bad for Tom, he had done awesome, and I was happy for him, but I was so down.

The trip home the next day went great.  I tried to drive for a while, but only lasted about an hour.  I was just tired and down.  We got home around 4pm, and really enjoyed the time with Linda.  She is such a great friend.  I didn't know what a great friend I was getting the first time she asked me if I wanted to go to a movie with her.  I will always be thankful for her.  

The next week was tough.  I didn't want to go to the gym, I had failed.  I didn't want to talk about the race, I had failed.  I didn't want to eat, I just wanted to sleep, I had failed.  I cried A LOT.  It was a bad week.  My trainer, Joey wanted me to go to his Physical Therapist, so I made an appointment.  I was so afraid I would cry in his office, but I didn't. Craig was very good, asked me questions, watched me walk and gave me some exercises to do twice a day.  He said my right hip is back farther them my left.  My right femur goes medial, and my tibia goes lateral; and my left leg was the opposite.  It wasn't bad, but he believes that with correction it will solve the IT Band issues, piriformis issues, and is the last step in healing my MCL injury. He also said No Running - no runner wants to hear this until the weekend and I could go on a "little run".  I asked him specifically what that meant:  3 miles, flat.  I was so sad still. However, he said my MCL knee was great and amazed at how healed and strong it was.  So, I did these exercises twice a day until Monday (yesterday).  I saw Craig yesterday, and he said I looked and walked better already.  He also watched me run, and wants me to basically tuck my pelvis under when I run, like a pelvic tilt.  He said I was so straight that it was causing tension on my hips, piriformis, and IT bands.  He said I was a good runner, and that I could run on Tuesday and Thursday - longer miles, and NO BRACE on flat surfaces!  Running without the brace was amazing.  Just amazing, even for the run through the parking lot at the PT office.

Here I am, healing again.  Still healing.  Both physically and mentally.  After running this past weekend, I started to feel better.  The run on Saturday was great (I did the Virtual Home of the Free Because of the Brave 5k for #MySoxyFeet).  The 5k run on Sunday was really hard, so much fatigue and it was hot - for both Tom and I.  So, the healing continues.

What have I learned?  I need to run.  My body wasn't ready for the Dizzy Goat, even though I was.  That I needed to celebrate others accomplishments, because it's not just about me.  I still need to learn patience.  Do I still love the Dizzy Goat?  Yes.  My review of the Dizzy Goat, is that it is an amazing race with good sportsmanship, comradery, friendship, hardship, suffering, and beautiful trails.  They had a new course this year, and it was great.  Will I go back? Yes, that is the plan.

Today we did another short race in Windsor (without my brace), but I think I will stop here and share more pictures.  Tomorrow is another day to blog.

#mysoxyfeet                  Stacy and Linda

                 The suspension bridge                              What The Hill

Me, Tom and Ginger

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Skirt Sports 13er

I can't believe how long it has been since I have written anything in my Blog.  I guess I just haven't felt like it lately, nor have I had the time.  I think when I do have the time, I have been too tired.  I have been meaning to write about the Skirt Sports 13er since June 4th, and I am finally getting around to it.  No one really reads my blogs anyway, so it really doesn't matter when I write about it.

So, after my poor and struggling performance at the Greenland race, I looked back at my mileage.  When looking back, I realized that I hadn't really done many long runs, and only 3 runs over 7 miles.  a 9.25, 11.0, and 13.2 miles.  I was really under trained, but that was due to my MCL injury.  I am OK with that, but I needed to move forward with longer distances and change a few other things.  First I felt it was time to regularly run 8 miles or more, and to try and jump start myself to run a little faster.  I started doing Fartleks twice a week in the morning in my neighborhood before my gym class, and starting running longer distances twice a week or more.  Sometimes its good to look at where you've been to figure out where you want to be.  I trained hard in those few weeks between races, and when June 4th arrive, I felt comfortably ready.

The day before the race Tom and I drove over to Skirt Sports in Boulder to pick up my bid number, and to check what Tom was supposed to be doing for volunteering.  I also was lucky enough to find a Lioness skirt on sale that fit me, so that was a bonus.  I am also unfamiliar with the area of the 13er, so we wanted to go check it out, so there would be no mistakes getting there the next day when I had to arrive at 5:30am.  I guess it was worth it, but next year I may skip picking up my number.  There really wasn't a large amount of women running this race.

The next morning I was nervous.  This was my first Half that I had done on my own, and Tom had to leave to get to his volunteer post at mile 7, so I was alone.  Well, not really alone.  My friend Renee was there running as well.  She isn't a Skirt Sport Ambassador, but lives 2 miles from the start!  And then there were all the other Ambassadors that I had "met" on-line that I got to meet!  Wow, it was great.

The race started on time, and at 6:30am, off we all went.  The couple of miles was pretty much up hill - yeah.  The first mile was on a hardly used road until it met up with the bike path, and then onto a main road.  The road was really nice to run on, and the view was great.  The temperature at that time was wonderful as well.  I found myself surrounded by friends, even though I knew hardly anyone that was running my slow pace.  After about three miles we turned north onto another road, which was also beautiful, and had shade!  I had a good pace, and was really happy with how things were going.  The aid stations didn't have much except water and Nuun, but that was fine as I had brought my own nutrition and electrolytes in my Camelback Marathoner vest.  Around mile the course turned to the east, and started up this really long, long hill.  It was never ending.  I did hear in the distance a cowbell!  That meant that Tom was up ahead somewhere.  He was at about mile 7.5, stopping traffic.  I only had about 2 more miles to the top of the hill.  Ugh, that was long, but when I got to the top, I turned around and looked at the view.  Beautiful. I had to walk the last quarter of the mile up the hill, as my left piriformis was nagging me, so decided to give it a break.  When I got to mile 10 I felt like I was doing well, but getting a little tired, and I was getting hot.  We then had to take a little mile long loop around a lake, that was warm, but nice.  Then came the top of the Mesa.  It had a great view, but it was HOT.  It was awful.  I had had a great pace up until then. I ended up walking several times, it was just hot, and I struggling for the first time in the race.  I had been passing, and then passed by another runner and about this time we were both struggling, so we joined forces.  We ran together and encouraged each other.  This was amazing.  Because to joined forces, we kept up a great pace.  Even thought I thought I was too tired to keep it up, we did, and I "sprinted" the last .25 miles to the finish line.

The Finish Line.  Wow, I thought I was going to cry.  What a great feeling it was.  I got my medal, and I went to sit down on the curb in the shade for a bit to recover.  Then it was time for something cold to drink, cake to eat, and to celebrate the achievement.  This was the best.  This was the best Half I have ever done. I was tired, but felt good for most of the race.  I hydrated well, kept up on my nutrition, and found ways to motivate myself.  I was proud of what I had accomplished and how I had gotten myself to train better and to work with my injuries.  You have to find it within yourself to make your own goals happen.  Sure, Tom was there to help me condition, but I had to WANT to do it.  You have to WANT it.  Sure, I am slow, but I ran my pace, my race, and I got there.  I am proud of myself.

Notes about this race.  I loved it, except the Mesa.  I loved the other women running it.  I have never been around such a group of motivating women.  I got to meet Anasthisa, she is also a My Soxy Feet Ambassador.  I got to meet several other women I had met on Facebook, and got to know them better.  Everyone was nice and friendly.  Not one person was rude.  The race was really well managed, and even Tom commented how organized it was for the volunteers.  He even enjoyed himself.  It was a very good morning, and it was a very positive experience.  Once again, Skirt Sports made me feel positive about myself.  The owners Nicole and Noelle are very motivating women, and I have the highest respect for them and what they are doing for women.  I hope to be an Ambassador again next year, but even if I am not, I will run this race again.

Notes about me.  I achieved something I hadn't done before - raced on my own.  I surprised myself by doing it.  I even managed some PR's for this year: fastest mile, fastest 5k, fastest 10k, fastest Half Marathon.  Even with my MCL injury.  I iced my knees and took anti-inflammatory afterwards (and before). Some pain, but not bad at all.  I took care of myself because no one else will.

Now the training for the Dizzy Goat 12 hour Trail Race continues.  The next weekend I had the Endurance Race Series East/West Trail which I will Blog about soon.

finish line photo

Finish line medal

Amy and I

Tom, Renee and I after the race

Top of the big hill

Top of the Mesa

Mile 3ish

Renee and I before the race

Anathsia and I

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